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::My last post (here)::

2006-07-08T19:38:00.000+08:00

i've moved! to www.shao.speechlez.com so continue to visit me there! this shall be my last post, n yes it's still about the world cup but from 2 singaporean women's point of view..

scene: hong lim food centre, the day after france beat port(ugal)y to advance
incident: i was enjoying my super fantastic fish soup rice, with 2 other rather bimbotic women (old nonetheless) opposite me. by the looks of it, they were great porty supporters (probably coz of the cute actor - c.Ronaldo)

bimbo 1: (to bimbo 2, of coz.. to me mehz?) eh portugal shouldn't get out lehs! the refs all kelong de, siding with france.. everytime porugal player fall down also don't want to award free kick!
bimbo 2: ya lor... tsk tsk fifa ah, super kelong..
me: (thinking out loud)hello, see the last 2 games porty play not? against holland, they resort to violence. against england, they do it with play acting. i'm sure fifa has enough sense to ask the refs not to be bluffed by porties anymore right??

bimbo 1: aiyah, did you see the ronaldo miss the attempt?

bombo 2: *nods*

me: (thinking out loud again)i didn't see the misses, but i'm sure i saw the dives after that..

bimbo2: did you see him cry after that?
bimbo1: ya ya, so pooooor thing...
me: (thinking out even louder) he cries for every single thing!! advance, cry. never advance, also cry. but i'll remember him for that wink when he got roon sent off..

bimbo 1 continues to rattle on about all those little facts about the world cup, like she knows everything.. but those little facts sounded familiar.. weren't those that i read from the straits times in the morning? like how ribery got that big scar across his face etc..

the ultimate of all...

bimbo 1: did you know portugal never lost a match till last night?
bimbo 2: yar!!
me: (bursting out loud.. i wished i did!) hellooooooo! none of those 4 teams lost a single match until they met one another! did germany the great lose? did wonderous italia defence let in another goal after that own goal by a substitute? france, boring as they were, never lost too though they did managed 2 draws.. so WHAT'S SO GREAT ABOUT YOUR BEST PORTUGESE ACTORS NOT LOSING A SINGLE MATCH TILL LAST NIGHT?!

i wished i had more peace during my lunch.

::The 3rd team::

2006-06-28T11:08:00.000+08:00

ok, so the teams that made it to the quarter finals are: germany, argentina, england, portugal, italy, ukraine, brazil, france. whooo all big big teams, all our dream teams.. eh but wait, what's ukraine doing here? where's spain? >.<

~germany got through by beating sweden rather convincingly, finished them off in how many minutes. and poor sweden had a player sent off.. >.< but well done la, germany.. on you go! but i think this is one of the most boring round of 16 matches considering what other sensational ones were going to come up next..

~argies had to go into extra time, and after a fantastic (probably goal-of-the-tournament) goal by rodrigues (how u spell it?) beat mexico.. i think mexico played quite well lehs, considering they were up against what seemed like one of the deadliest teams in this world cup.. oh and i love the argies fans, all swinging their jersies in the air like a mad party..

~england.. probably the 3rd most talked about match after italy n portugal's respectively.. 60 minutes into the game, england looked pathetic and lifeless against ecuador, becks swung his trademark free kick into the net and sealed england's meagre victory.. and he went on to puke on the ground.. lucky england, super super lucky.. at this rate that they're playing, they actually call themselves likely contenders of the champion?? someone should ask them to wake up.

~portugal-holland match.. battle of nuremberg, they call it.. why? the ref flashed a total of 16 yellows and 4 reds! gotta be the most violent match (and the most kayu refereeing) le.. so portugal scrpaed through the match with a 1-0 win. somehow, when you red the post match reports, they seemed to concentrate more on the brawling than the balling.. who was the better team??

~italy beat australia by scoring a last minute (or rather last 20 seconds) penalty.. hiyoh, even as an azzurri fan i don't think this is the best way to win.. aussies worked damn hard for the draw and the ref had to give away a penalty kick in the dying seconds. like what they said, it's daylight robbery la.. credits for italy's defending with 10 men, kudos to aussies never-say-die spirit. but the 3rd team - the referees - don't deserve anything but a red card.. what did that red think he was doing? maybe he wanted to outdo the other guy from the protugal-holland match to create more record in this world cup.. bleahs.. azzurri fan, but not proud to be one this time!

~switz went out of the tournament as the only team who didn't let in any goal.. in other words, clean sheet all the way.. well maybe it goes to show something, the whole swiss team can defend damn well, but none of them can score at penalties?! maybe you win some, you lose some.. not all teams can be as all-rounded as brazil right? and shev-wad's-his-name can't score penalties too!! the miss yesterday probably reminded him of champs league last year in istanbul? nonetheless, they still got through and will meet italy in the quarters..

~brazil cruised pass ghana with a 3-0 victory.. actually, with all the hype surrounding brazil i was secretly hoping for a ghana miracle.. they were the only african (or rather non-south american or non-european) team left, so you'd want a world cup, not a american-euro cup right? and ghana was fantastic, they were better than ivory coast la.. in fact, ghana had more possesion, attempts at shots and reduced brazil to playin counter-attack! how can brazil possibly score more goals than a team that was playin better than them? :| but well, at least fat Ro is back!(ok, he's not fat.. he's just chubby k?)

~after holding on to a 1-1 scoreline for most of the match, spain succumbed to the french who scored 2 goals within the last 10 minutes or something.. poor poor spain, you kinda feel unjustified for spain who shone like bright stars during the group stages, only to get whacked out by a team who fared like dust during the round of 32.. but then again, maybe france was the better team this time round.. it goes back to show, no matter how good you were previously, all it takes is a small mistake to bring you back down.. that's life eh? the saddest thing to spain is probably the fact that ukraine (who they happily demolished during the groupies) advanced and spain didn't! >.<

meanwhile, i'm starting to have headaches from the late night sleep and lack of sleep le.. so i guess these 2 days are to make up for it, and while there might be a bit of no-match withdrawal around, i'd be glad to catch back my few hours of sleep each night ;) till the quarters, take care!

::mr owen is a 容易受伤的男人::

2006-06-21T21:02:00.000+08:00

what happened to him?? he actually twisted his knee from that weird fall of his in the 1st minute of this morning's game.. i switched on the tv, and the 1st thing i saw through my very tiny eyes was the awkward way he fell and the substitution of crouch for him.. and i went back to sleep. :| so disappointing, where was the child prodigy with that wonderous goal against the argies 8 years ago? at 26, he should be at the peak of his career, but look what happened? >.< hais. i guess england fans should stop deceiving themselves, wake up people! england are not good enough for the trophy.. nonetheless, i'm standing by mr owen..

somehow this one wasn't as exciting as the previous world cup.. argentina are good, they look like brazil's biggest challenger.. and i don't understand what's wrong with the brazil's 2-2-6 formation.. they only managed to score 3 goals in 2 matches, while spain's torres scored 3 by himself in 2 matches.. hais.
and burning out has started to take place. for me la.. wanted to bia 3 matches each day, screw up my biological clock and such, but that's if i hadn't found a job. but now, having worked 3 weeks, i'm tired. and it's not helping that after work, i've got tuition on an average of 4 times per week. that basically sapped away all my energy.. :|

let's all hope that the games get more exciting from now.. and i hope, azzurri can make it for the next round! >.<

::TGIWE::

2006-06-17T10:28:00.000+08:00

Thank God It's WeekEnd!!

for me to catch up on my beauty sleep, and to watch more matches! on weekdays, considering the workload is a lot, a watch 1 match. fridays at least 2 matches, and saturdays it's a full-flung 3 matches ;) yeah! more to come and shall do a re-cap of the past matches that was a lot more noticeable..

*Poland-Ecuador: 0-2 who'd expect lowly ecuador to be so qiang this world cup? but then again, the ball is round..
*England-Paraguay: 1-0 technically speaking, england fared super badly for the match. it's an own goal by poor paraguayan captain, it's a morale-depressor for his team. and of course, as you all would have heard it, england blamed the weather for their lousy performance.. oh well, whatever.. as long as they get the 3 points they need..
*TrinidadTobago-Sweden: 0-0 i think sweden must have shots of over 20, everytime they attempted a shot, you'd think 'this is gonna be a goal liao' but sad to say, T&T were so great defenders they just snuffed off the game *yawns*
*Argentina-Ivory Coast: 2-1 one of the best match so far, argies looked like they're gonna usurp brazil for the champion this time round. and ivory coast deserves a pat on the back for their effort, maybe they can do a senegal this time?
*Serbia-Holland: 0-1 temperatures reached 40 deg C that day, and it was a frustrating match to watch :|
*sad to say, i missed the group D matches of angola-portugal, and mexico-iran..
*Italy-Ghana: 2-0 finally the azzurri has proven their worth in this tournament! at least the 2nd goal was beautiful, let's just hope they can uphold the standard for the next few matches. go go azzurri!! (:
*Australia-Japan: 3-1 hais, poor poor japan, poor poor kawaguchi >.< a bit disappointed with the results, considering this is the match that's considered the easiest for japan le..
*Brazil-Croatia: 1-0 looks like the samba kings have not warmed up yet.. can't wait to see their 2-2-6 formation lolx ;)
*South Korea-Togo: 2-1 oh well.. south korea very qiang la, their red fans are still all over the place! hais and they chiong chiong the whole match..
*France-Switz: 0-0 luckily i only watched 20 minutes of it, coz i knew it'd be boring.. what's with le bleus?!?!
*Spain-Ukraine 4-0 this is what i call thrashing.. and it was so cruel, where was the most hyped shev-wad? and spain looked so different, i think it's time for them to shrug off their 'king of underperformers' title..
*Germany-Poland: 1-0 can someone tell me why is lehmann still between the goalpost??
*Ecuador-Costa Rica: 3-0 i say again, ecuador is really damn qiang..
*England-TrinidadTobago: 2-0 they took 83 minutes to break the wall of defence.. boring match until our favourite boy-wonder rooooooney comes on, and crouchy scored a header and gerrard did his trademark thunder-strike.. finaaly, it's a convincing win for them..
*Argentina-Serbia: 6-0 if you call spain's triumph over ukraine a 'thrashing', this match is gonna be called a 'demolishing' totally lehs.. :| poor things, and argies did damn well again.. brazil should watch their backs >.<
*Holland-Ivory Coast: 2-1 another defeat of the same scoreline for ivory coast, i thought a draw was more consoling for ivory coast, considering the amount of effort they put in and their drive in the game..

tonight, there's portugal-iran, czech rep-ghana, italy-usa.. shall bia all the 3.. lolx gotta go! enjoy the rest people!!

p's: can someone tell me, why are beckham and crouch wearing long sleeves??

::It's a happerning opening!::

2006-06-10T01:54:00.000+08:00

6 goals, germany beat costa rica 4-2. somehow, i think they should do away with jens, and put back oliver k. he's so much more steady.. i mean jens literally stoned there when the goals came in.. :| but it was just about the most happening, goals-fiesta opening match ever :) more to come! yups but shall go sleep le tmr got 2 matches to 赶 wor..

::W for work and World Cup::

2006-06-09T20:17:00.000+08:00

been working for a week le.. still gonna conclude schooling is still the best (: raffles place is so much nicer compared to the godforsaken place i worked at last year, at least there's good food n a nice river to sit by. n the food's not exactly very expensive, $2 for normal chicken rice, $2.50 for additional meat. *shmacks* colleagues are quite nice and friendly, very considerate also - working quietly, but there's always the occasional gossip and small talks. there's the internet cafe, it's a cool concept haha i guess it's to make up for denying me of internet access :| yes! no internet!! heh but k la, managed to pass time without that too.. n i don't have to answer phone calls and faxes and emails and hear from annoying customers and supervisors etc. haha own time own target, and all these for quite a satisfactory pay ;) ya but i keep falling asleep during work, and when world cup comes...?! haha i guess i'll watch the 9 and 12 matches, leave the 3am de to weekends bah..

yes, tonight is the night! 4 more hours to kick off as i blog this.. this is the period of time when the world seem to stop, colleagues taking long leave to chase ball (or boys, depending on your gender orientation), people coming to work/school (after the holidays) with panda eyes, when wives suddenly feel unloved (thankfully both of us like to watch haha), when people start having beer bellies and growing fat from the midnight snacking, when terrorists don't have time to go around bombing people (pray they don't attach any match), when half the daily Newpaper reports on the previous day's matches, when people get mental and scream at the tv with those words that are used once every 4 years like 'kelong' 'like that also cannot score!' 'red card la' 'oei offside lehs, ref blind or wad?' 'there goes my betting money!', the build up to the final and suddenly left with nothing but memories after the last match, the world cup withdrawal syndromes, and the feeling of back to reality and the idea of having to wait another 4 years set in. totally sucks.. haha but that's for us to worry about 1 month later. for now, just catch the fever!! (:
world cup rocks my world! (by the way, i support italy, not england!)

::Devils chalet::

2006-06-01T10:52:00.000+08:00

i simply love devils chalets haha when are w having our next?? stole some pix from joyce, and the ultimate kbox videos at the end of the post. it's a must watch! ;)

bbq was as always hilarious.. other than cooking, we sat around and chit chatted, update one another about our lives. and for me, the best opportunity to suan zonghao, considering i haven't seen him for 4 good years (the last world cup, goodness!) can't hold my tongue haha. here's the bbq pix!

Two's a company..

The usual 'you-me' pictures

Three's a crowd..

The usual 'you-me-the other person' pictures

They're acting cute while i'm busy!!

I can't believe they never ask me to act cute along with them! *left out*

Buaya king at work..

Haha kidding la, it's a usual 'guys update girls on NS life' thing..

Busy at work..

Making sure they have the best of bbq food

Harmlessly Scary Pictures

Really had a scare editing these pics, but anyway, hope they don't kill me if they see this.. joyce was the one who took the pix!

Class of Devils - RVHS 2002

Graduated, friends forever..

and the bbq ended off with that touching class picture (preceded by that scary photos).. back to the chalet, the usual ps2 games, asshole dai dee, mahjong for a while and the blackjack session against the 3 lords of the gamble. sad to say, we didn't play much (as we used to do in the past chalet) although the girls team did we a bit of $$. stole a few hours of sleep and on to the next day's activities..

Dead tired

Chunchi looked like he's died in a scary position, and zonghao looked like a ready to eat ba zang (肉粽)

Back from the Wild.. Wild Wet!

The captions speak for themselves..

From the chalet

Misc pix from inside the chalet

finally managed to get our lazy butts out of the chalet, so made our way to kbox at tampines. came to realise that our class people really like to K, so our future outings have another alternative le ;) not many pix, but there's 2 videos showing the warzone there.. before going on to them, shall summarise what happened in the box. took sometime to warm up, and as usual, jinhan kicked off with the jacky wu's version of 屋顶 and the ball started rolling le. we were, many at times, howling with laughter and screaming into the microphones with our 音不准 voices, it was like 拆屋子 like that. and the songs kept coming, and the ultimate highlight was our 5 信乐团 songs in a row - 一了百了, 天高地厚, one night in beijing, 世界末日 and the best 死了都要爱. total madness lohs, especially after the last song, we were left voiceless.. then after that we chose those english songs with lousy mtv to sing.. it was seriously damn hilarious, haven't laughed my guts upside down for a long time le.. heh n now for the videos:

it's kinda grainy, but we should all know that's jinhan, the jacky wu of 4devils.. his version of 'one night in eijing' enjoy the laugh, but meanwhile take care of your ears do no switch on to a loud volume!

funny as well, jinhan and ben (didn't we say there's something on between them?) and their 动力火车's '坚守爱情' also the kind of 要死要活 song..

that's the fun, joy and laughter of the devils chalet for you. i must say, i feel very very lucky to have known them and even better, kept in contact till now. hopefully, the devils spirit will continue to burn on.. (: that's all folks!

::Nation building.. the Ole way::

2006-05-25T10:51:00.000+08:00

a few more days to the release of exam results, i'll be at the chalet, and i shall not look at my results (lest it spoils my playing mood) until i get home from the chalet. one of the modules i've taken for this exam is nation building, it is also one that i'll be praying for - i don't want to screw it up!

anyway the module is about the many policies that the singapore government has come up with to gel the country together.. maybe i can suggest something new here - the Ole method..
maybe they can put together $100 million to bring in foreign talent from brazil, france, italy, spain, argentina (together with a singapore passport, of course) to play for team singapore. then like that, we can (more) easily acieve our Goal 2010 dream eh? what's more, get the players to cut the super pro singapore tourism board hairstyle(hint: ronaldo, world cup final 2002), can get our favourite landmark onto the global stage somemore! it's killing 2 birds with 1 stone - get singapore into world cup 2010 (in south africa by the way) and market singapore's esplanade to the world!
someone please look into my suggestion.. (:

::A perfect lover::

2006-05-25T10:07:00.000+08:00

seen it around a lot of blogs, so shall join in the fun ;)

1. Specify the gender of the perfect lover: i could still be in an identity crisis but currently, i'm with a guy so i guess i'm straight (for the time being)

2. List down 7 qualities of the perfect lover: (not in order of preference)

a) has to be smarter than me (i can't stand talking to stupider guy - make himself look silly and make me 不好意思)

b) must be as humorous or more humorous than me (i don't think i'm very funny le, so that's not a very difficult trait ya)

c) must be faithful (the word is self-explanatory right?)

d) has no problem loving me, and i don't find a problem loving him (of course!)

e) more optimistic than me (i'm a hopeless pessimist who says 'die!' at least 5x a day)

f) not be a male chauvinist (he must believe in what i believe i can achieve)

g) has to keep his feet firmly on the ground (he shall be the simple one whom i've known, and hope will always know in the future)

3. Tagged 7 person
let's just say i'm plain lazy to go around tagging ppl, so i think those who read my blog are considered tagged. so you're tagged!

::Maybe Baby::

2006-05-23T10:02:00.000+08:00

eh no, don't get me wrong!! nothing of the sort (: just that i conclude, sundays and public transport systems don't mix for me. heh i was on a train to town on sunday, then there was this influx of pregnant women onto the train. i just had to look up from my seat and there i was, shoved in the face with 3 big tummies (k don't take it too literally, nothing of the sort happened - at least not being shoved!) being the kind-hearted me, i gave up me seat to 1 of them. haha but i was left wonderin, threatening to fall off due to my bad ability to balance: why do pregnant women like to squeeze the public transport with so many evil singaporeans who pretend to fall asleep when they see them? i mean, if i've got a precious baby in my tummy, i'd make sure i've got enough $$ to take a taxi if i want to go out on crowded wkends. bringing up a baby is an expensive business in s'pore. and i wouldn't go walk around and risk gettin knocked into (literally) by some pesky little kids who dash around like a homing missile, totally oblivious to this mumzilla in their way. hais. i wouldn't dare to walk near a pregnant woman, i think it's extremely dangerous. i mean *touchwood* if anything happens to them and you can be remotely linked to being the cause of the mishap, i'm sure the husband/family/strangers wouldn't even let you off >.< scary business eh..

www.dvc.com.sg - the official site of the movie in s'pore. sounds like some vcd-selling shop if you ask me. anyway, went to watch the show le, again, the novel is always better than the movie. i mean yups, it's the moving pictures version and more thrilling to see things in action, but somehow there's like missing parts here and there and i guess people like me don't feel comfortable with things being left out. why didn't they get a real albino to cast as silas? it'd make it more realistic.. maybe damien duff from chelsea could give the brit actor a gd run for money as silas. heh and fache in the movie didn't come across as annoying and cold as portrayed in the book lehs. i'd remember him as the straight faced side kick of steve martin in the pink panther diamond, not this fache who's neither here nor there. haha.

that shall be all for today, yeps it's 17 days to world cup!! (:

::Jobs jobs::

2006-05-19T15:44:00.000+08:00

not sure if i'm looking for jobs, considering it's the world cup year and the matches aren't at exactly very nice timings like 4 years ago.. just look at the champs league 2 nights ago, it totally screwed up my biological clock - having breakfast at 4am (staying up all night makes you hungry you know), sleeping at 5am all the way to 11 next morning, and the following night sleeping at 12 all the way to 11am this morning.. if this is going to go on for the entire world cup period, who's dare to employ me...?!

heh n speaking of champs league, it was kinda sad sad night.. one team has to lose and most unfortunately, it was arse. hais you can't deny that they did defend quite well, after all there were like 6 to 8 defenders..? n i really kinda pity robert pires >.< hmmz so in the end, i was just feeling nonchalent.. at least it was a classy showdown, unlike that of the last season, where the tyco team with a strong belief in themselves won..

still remember a few seasons ago, liverpool was booted out just after the group stages of the champs league(ironically, it was a match against valencia, which was the ex-employer of benitez, the man who last year brought liverpool to their champs league trophy). and i wrote in my then-OD, that we can always wait for the next season, and if not the next and so on.. then this fellow liverpudlian dropped a note to say '...hey...u cannot think like that...cannot bia next season...if like that then l'pool will nv win liaoz...haha...' but in the end, they still did it in 05/06 season. so what does this show? patience is a virtue, so maybe i wait longer, someone will come and offer me a job?

eh i think that was totally off-point.. anyway, can't wait for the world cup!! it's 21 more days (:

::Very amused::

2006-05-17T10:15:00.000+08:00

who says footballers are just a bunch of patheitc money-sucking no-brainers who roll around the mud with the ball? chanced across a few webbies with quite a number of them actively involved in charity (:

Reading the game
Famous footballers share their favourite books with school kids in uk, making known to them the importance of reading.. it's a wonder they actually read. or that they can read, as a matter of fact..

SOS Children Village
Footballers - figureheads of one of the most popular sports - they draw attention to the common cause in their various countries and at the international level as well as making a contribution to the activities organised in their respective fields..

Getting their pants off for charity
Rio Ferdinand, Jamie Redknapp, Darren Anderton and Paul Ince have teamed up with other Premiership stars and managers to raise money for research into testicular and prostate cancer…by auctioning off their underpants for charity at www.bigfanof.com
The stars, whose personal websites are all featured on bigfanof.com, include players Ferdinand (Leeds United), Redknapp and Didi Hamman (Liverpool), Ince (Middlesbrough), Anderton (Spurs), Muzzy Izzet (Leicester City) and Gary Speed (Newcastle United) as well as managers Harry Redknapp (West Ham) and Jim Smith (Derby County). The participants will each be donating a pair of their very own underpants – washed, of course - and signed ready for the auction.
(P/s: this is kinda out-dated, that's why some of the names don't match their current clubs)

The Bobby Moore Fund
He was one of England's greatest who unfortunatedly passed away at a young age due to bowel cancer (i think it's called colorectal cancer in s'pore). set up by Bobby Moore's wife in his memory, the fund aims at cancer research and bringing hope to patient's lives. big partners of the fund includes the FA in england..

Christian Aid - TackleAfrica
Sven-Goran Eriksson, Nancy Dell'Olio, Atomic Kitten, Gareth Southgate and Arsenal full-back Lauren are among a host of celebrities backing Christian Aid and new charity TackleAfrica in their attempt to use football to promote awareness of HIV/AIDS among young people in Africa.

Everyone's favourite footballer and celebrity wife
the Beckhams (or is it just victoria) are auctioning of 2mill pounds worth of items for unicef charity.. and maybe hogging the limelight for the upcoming world cup. realised we haven't heard from mr db for a long time, this is just the perfect chance to get attention again! among others, the entire england squad would be present at the event..

The FA Charity Shield
curtain raiser of every season's premier league played between the winner of the league and the winner of previous season's FA cup (shall be chelsea vs liverpool next season *groans*), some of the funds go to charity organisations nominated by the 124 clubs playin in the matches.. wonder how much that is, considering the funds have to be shared by 124 or more charity orgs..

of course, the most practical and everyone-can-do-it method is for them to donate half of their monthly salary to charities, and there won't be poor and needy people there anymore (:

::Oopz they did it again::

2006-05-14T10:10:00.000+08:00

can you just imagine the occasional agony of being a liverpool fan? if you're a newbie and looking for a club to support, don't ever look at liverpool. they simply drive you nuts.. >.< was watching the fa cup final last night, damn cheated my sleeping time again.. back from 2-0 down to make it 3-3 by injury time, gone into extra time and escaped sudden death, and thankfully during the penalties goalie saved the goals and his 面子. deja vu of champs league 2005 that deprived me of sleep but it was a worthy dramatic showdown (i happen to like drama very much haha). this time round, it was *urgh*. by half time, i felt 简直是看不下去了! disappointing performance. heh luckily they won, but at the end of it, which team won didn't matter. west ham was lacking in technical proficiency liverpool had, and pool was lacking the drive and spirit west ham had. so i guess, both were undeserving. can't they just split up the cup? speaking of splitting up the cup, it could be done. perhaps the lid/cover/whatever of the cup and its base should go to west ham, they do deserve something. then pool can keep the main body of it. haas. but one thing for sure, we can't deny that liverpool is the king of tyco (or the comeback kings, for that matter) and yes, they did it again. oopz (:

::Goodby is the hardest word::

2006-05-10T10:25:00.000+08:00

went to see eunice off on monday, surprisingly there weren't any teary farewell scene there. maybe it was the thought that she could be back again 1 wk later..? but that's just a MIGHT.. or maybe it was because we didn't doodle so much on the bidding farewell part.. will it be the same come september? :| i remember last sept when yingqi and i had dinner with kangli before she went uk, i was quite upset.. i mean you've already gotten so used to the person being around you, its just so difficult to accept that he'll be gone and the next time you see him it'll be one yr later.. oh well.. *shudders to think*

back to a lighter note, haha watched the last premiership match of the season, not the loserish chelsea kenna beaten by newcastle, it's the one that arse did well enough to usurp no.4 from a super suai spurs team that was down with food poisoning on that day.. >.< heh chelsea is like pap, another clean sweep except for the last 2 games (likened to hougang and potong pasir), then the relegated teams were doing an sdp (i mean they are on their way down isn't it?) haha elections are fun to watch, so are football matches.. there are just so many similarities in them (:

::大选要来了!::

2006-05-02T19:42:00.000+08:00

before the world cup, singapore is experiencing another type of fever - the general elections. haha or maybe not, for the majority politically-docile group of ppl like singaporeans? anyway, the west siders grc are not contested, so most of the ppl living in the west side don't get to vote.. heh or rather the parties don't give half a damn about the west side eh? probably just a huge useless piece of land bah..

n realised a lot of ppl don't really like pap..? haha well, i think sometimes we shouldn't judge things based on how they do stuff, rather what stuff have they done? i mean we can't deny that they did do a lot of things to improve the state of singapore, that the things they did have indeed benefitted us as a country. who gave u ur roof over the head? who gave u ur highly efficient airport? who, during that scary sars period, clamped down on the disease without risking more deaths? and of course, who gives you $$ when elections are coming??
i mean, let's just say i'm not pro-pap but i'm not anti them either. i guess before we say whichever party is better, we should think things in a more objective way. u can't deny that they have been an efficient government eh? i won't mind getting more bonuses, upgradings and what-have-you.. after all, we're the ones who benefit haha (:

::大便!!!::

2006-04-24T17:04:00.000+08:00

this is so shit, i can't do ANY of the past year paper questions of cm1131. shit. tmr hopeless le :|

::Schizo me::

2006-04-12T14:49:00.000+08:00

i don't want to eat, yet i feel the urge to binge... maybe after exams. i shall drag all my lovers to makan at every single eatery in singapore with me. but for now, i don't feel like eating. i can't even remember how it is like to feel hungry. haa. just 2 days ago, when i was watching da chang jin, there was this surge of puke outta my guts. it's been 10 years since i last puked, i forgot how it was like. till that day, i remembered, it's damn awful. it was like puking 10 years worth of junk out. sucks.
mugging for perfumes and cosmetics. anyone who wishes to take this module next time, don't bother. it's freaking hell lot of memory work. screw off!
looking forward to after exams, looking for a job (of course, that's where all your money comes from right?), 4d chalet (ben, u better give me something!), binging sessions, meeting up with friends, becoming couch potato on the world cup matches and enjoying being mrs owen, mj with s23, working on alumni stuff, look for more food. can't we just get the stupid exams OVER AND DONE WITH?

-some people are just asking to be slapped-

::Before i disappear for a while::

2006-04-10T09:03:00.000+08:00

i'm going to 闭关修炼 (mug) for 2 weeks, so meanwhile u people take care, n all the best with the muggings (:

::世界不同了::

2006-04-07T22:15:00.000+08:00

somehow, life's just so different now that my first year in uni is coming to an end following the would-be exams in 2 weeks' time >.< there seems to be no proper meaning in schooling other than academic reasons. let's just say i don't have friends here, other than proj mates and my lecture kakis. well, but at least i have them (:
there's no mass dance that the whole cohort knows and gets very enthusiastic over, there's no traditional mass dance passed on from generations of seniors before, there's no soccer matches to keep the whole school roaring and cheering, there's no 'classroom' to stay back after lesson time to play bridge in, there's no school spirit or pride when one of the ccas has won something. there's just so many things missing in life here.
or is it because, apathy towards matters have grown as we age?

::We've got the fever!::

2006-03-30T21:15:00.000+08:00

nopez, not H5N1, not HFMD... it's THE World Cup Fever hehe 70 days more! (: frankly speaking, i live for the world cup. ever since i fell in love with it in 1998 (that's France'98), i remember my excitement when the 2002 one came, though the results were very much screwed up. ahahaha, now's come germany 2006! yesh! and the best thing is, this year there's no major exams (other than those horrid school exams la): we are the suai batch can, 98 was psle year, 02 was O levels year, disgusting :| remember myself not studying for mid year in sec 4 coz was watching the matches the entire holiday - they tried to be smart la, put mid year exam after june hols, thought we mugger batch would use the hols to mug. pui. come on, it's the world cup! heh remember mr tham saying, you can watch the world cup 4 years later, but if you don't do well for your o levels, that's for life. oh come on, i'm sure the mid year results affected that of o levels. haaa my l1r5 was 4 times that of what i got for Os ;)

but that's not the point. the point is WORLD CUP IS COMING AGAIN! wah can't describe my excitement, even thought it's still 70 days away, but 终于等到了! come on, feel happy for me (and many other enthusiasts around) hehe (: but i think the fever has not hit the maximum yet, i think it's not even room temperature haha, but wait till 9 june. wait til then. you guys just wait and see! hehehehe. damn happy. k shall contain my excitement, more to come ah (:

::无力::

2006-03-21T12:06:00.000+08:00

there's really no motivation, no courage to carry on. why can't i be like anybody else, blog about happy things happening to them every week/day? is it because i've outgrown that phase of recording my life? not just chronological events anymore, but rahter deeper thoughts and thinking. or is it just happy things no longer happen to me? is it that bleak? v for vendetta is an inspiring show - R for revenge, V for vendetta. is that what i've learnt from RV? evil doings.. haa, i wish i could be like others, like children without worries (even HFMD is left to the parents to worry about). is this what growing up is like? more responsibilities and seeing happiness creeping away from you as the days pass. is this what i want? if things have to be like that, i'd rather not grow up. i rather be 16, when i'm surrounded by friends and people who love me for who i am, and not having to put on that hideous mask of fake happiness and unconcerned attitude.. who can i be true to, when i'm not even true to myself and my own heart? material wants can be satisfied with money, but what about things that you want deep in your heart? i'm having great difficulties getting them, and there's just nobody other than meself who can help. is that what growing up is about? being more and more selfish? questions, they never end. but answers never seem to come.

::小猪的故事::

2006-03-17T22:34:00.000+08:00

我只想永远做那只小猪 (:

::为什么这样子?::

2006-03-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

你..变了
你..已不是我所认识的你了
太失望了..

::枫::

2006-03-12T20:52:00.000+08:00

烏雲在我們心裡擱下一塊陰影
我聆聽沉寂已久的心情
清晰透明
就像美麗的風景
總在回憶裡才看的清

被傷透的心能不能夠繼續愛我
我用力牽起沒溫度的雙手
過往溫柔已經被時間上鎖
只剩揮散不去的難過

緩緩飄落的楓葉像思念
我點燃燭火溫暖歲末的秋天
極光掠奪天邊
北風掠過想妳的容顏
我把愛燒成了落葉
卻換不回熟悉的那張臉

緩緩飄落的楓葉像思念
為何挽回要趕在冬天來之前
愛妳穿越時間
兩行來自秋末的眼淚
讓愛滲透了地面
我要的只是妳在我身邊

在山腰間飄逸的紅雨
隨著北風凋零
我輕輕搖曳風鈴
想
喚醒被遺棄的愛情
雪花已鋪滿了地
深怕窗外楓葉已結成冰

::To think about::

2006-03-09T20:35:00.000+08:00

was blog-hopping and saw this particular entry, something to think about:

shao is the girl and jae is the guy. jae used to like shao, shao didn't accept jae. then jae got together with this other girl, and shao regretted not accepting jae and tries to get jae's attention etc. poor jae's girlfriend, hope he doesn't fall for shao again as shao had been the heartless one in the 1st place. heh wishing jae and his current girl gd luck. and shao should think whether it's moral of her to try to get jae back.
[how dramatic, thought it only happens in hk drama. haa. eh by the way, the shao is not me shao!]

spent a little escapade at sentosa with duh yesterday, best thing ever was sakae on the beach (: and the sea at night is mysterious, even alluring...

::Hmmz::

2006-03-06T17:26:00.000+08:00

sometimes, living in self-denial is useful.

::Concert Withdrawal::

2006-02-27T10:27:00.000+08:00

haha late night practices till 10 plus every night for the past week, thanks duh duh for sending me home without fail :) it finally ended with a high note last night at ucc. thanks for my dear rvco seniors and juniors for the yummilicious cookies (or is it chocs?), thanks my dear njco juniors for the sweet bouquet of flowers, thanks my cute sis for the bottle of cookies, thanks my parents for braving through the long sleepy concerto, thanks duh duh for the sugary bouquet of flowers i guess it was quite an interesting concert, considering the minimal number of times we've been to practices and the limited rehearsals :) thanks the backstage crew and technical support staff. haha and of course most importantly, thank the 6 of them from the section, they have made life so much more happening: wu jun for the lameness, qiulin for tryin to keep a straight face, jingxin for the very lame lameness, michelle for joining in the guys' lameness, zhang lao shi for being even lamer than us, and eugene being the ultimate lamer of all nice working with you guys!! :) 那是一段美丽的回忆, 我们后会有期，我会想你的 (:

::Goodbye::

2006-02-17T16:53:00.000+08:00

elton john and blue sang 'sorry seems to be the hardest word', but to me, the hardest word is goodbye. it's never easy to say goodbye to someone you love(d), whether you were close to him/her or not, whether he/she's leaving you for good or not.

my maternal grandfather passed away on 15 feb 2006, one day before my mum's birthday. my paternal grandfather passed away on 4 july 2003, one day before my birthday. my paternal grandmother passed away on 16 nov 2003, one day before my cousin's (who's the next eldest after me) birthday. coincidence eh? they want us to remember them forever. we can't forget, for they were once close to us.

the moment when i knew they have left me, it took a while for the news to sink in. and then it took forever to stop the tears from flowing.. when my p.grandfather passed away, i was devastated as it was so sudden. i cried every night through the 5 days wake, and it was especially bad during the send off: when the coffin was brought onto the hearse, it was something i had to come in terms with - he's not going to come back anymore. my p.grandmother had cancer, it was a relief to see her go as she had pain and suffering before. but still, i cry at nights when i thought of them. after all, we used to live together. losing them was like missing an integral part of my life. it took long to recover, but till now a part of me still weep when memories of my childhood come back to me. then my m.grandfather who had also been in pain before his departure, i felt happy for him. maybe it's the difference in my mentality this time round, 3 years really made a difference! we celebrated his life, it was a simple 3 day wake. and after reading his wishes in a letter, it was really a consolation. to him, life was about letting go. he wanted us to keep it simple so as not to tire us out. to him, the fact that his children had been very filial and fulfilled all his wishes, there was nothing else he wanted more. to him, we should not consider it as a lost.

isn't this how life should be? to treasure and cherish what you have while you can, and after they are gone, leave the past behind and continue with the journey. death is not the end of things, it is a whole new experience in the better world. we mourn for their departure, but not indulge in self-pity of losing a close one. i'm sure they have never wanted us to cry our guts out for them every day, or they wouldn't be able to leave in peace.

if you have lost something/someone whom you loved a lot, don't feel overly-depressed. be happy for what they have accomplished in their life and move on with your own. more importantly, treasure and cherish who/what you have now before it's too late to do anything.

may all have a blessed life, meanwhile i shall stop blogging for some time to sort out my life. i needa get it back on rail. :)

::三年的快乐时光::

2006-02-09T19:43:00.000+08:00

在没人的沙滩看星星。每颗星都像钻石一样永恒不变。我们的爱也如此。 :)

::The story of the big cuddly doggie::

2006-02-06T16:17:00.000+08:00

wouldn't it be nice if you receive a very huge cuddly soft toy doggie for valentine's day? probably quite sweet ya..?
then again, what are you gonna do with it after receiving it? it'll probably stay on your bed, hog up a huge part of it and leave you sleeping near the edge of your bed. is that what you want?
oh well...

::助人为快乐之本::

2006-02-02T11:27:00.000+08:00

please stop forwarding to me the msg, i've already gotten it 8 times le. so here i am, posting it up so that people who see it can pass it to others. and i guess passing it around doesn't really help, until someone comes forward to help with real action eh?

Please help spread this to our classmates and fellow NJCians(of course, if you're not from NJ you're most welcome to donate too). Mrs Che (a teacher from NJ) is having leukemia and needs B+ or O+ blood. Anyone who can donate please contact Mr Davidson (97659578) or her daughter Esther (97405174). [no pranks please!!]

::Lamenting::

2006-02-02T09:53:00.000+08:00

some people just suck super big time. lab reports suck too.

::旺旺::

2006-01-28T22:15:00.000+08:00

wish 大家

财气旺运气旺旺感情运旺旺旺健康更加旺旺旺旺!! :)

happy doggie year to all!!

::New Year spirits::

2006-01-22T20:59:00.000+08:00

just managed to finish my new year shopping, bought a pair of shoes fr U.R.S, a set of clothes from s&k (erms not SK the jewellery shop though), and a skirt (!!) from bum.. i want a bag from tt jap shop at citilink, but it's kinda ex.. someone sponsor me please?? :P just kiddin.. then tried to decorate my house (as in help out with the new yr decos), my mum was sayin the more 俗气 during chinese new year, the better it is.. this i agree la, but still... you should see it, it's really very 俗气 la.. haha kk, do that once a year is alright i guess.. and how i love chinese new year not so much on the 红包 part, rather the excitement comes when they stock up the fridge and cupboard with food.. seriously i can't wait, plan to binge till i grow damn fat like a pig
^(o'@'o)^

::Blardy::

2006-01-19T15:45:00.000+08:00

N.U.(terribly selfish).aSs
buggerz.

::2.9979 x 10^8 m/s::

2006-01-18T13:53:00.000+08:00

that's the speed of light (in case you guys have forgotten). time flies at that pace, how fast.. when things change, you gotta catch up with them or you'll be left behind forever. hmmms.. in a whirl, it's almost 2 weeks since school started, dance ended, chinese new yr approaching. soon, it'll be world cup (after a 4 years wait), and it'll be BIG 20 for me. so fast, 20 years.. accomplished anything great? haah i don't think so. this is really fast, it's already 2pm and haven't had lunch yet, time to do so i guess.. the world and everything else has changed before we know it.

::Complicated::

2006-01-17T21:03:00.000+08:00

3 days, 2 break ups, many more stuff to wonder about, more people not assured of each other. then i saw her in school today, was quite awkward as i had to say hello to her (for knowin her in jc and many more). weird weird. hais.. *shakes head* so much so that there's no courage in me to think of the future.

on a lighter (oh not exactly) note, my notebook kenna-ed virus, i think the person in the comp service centre was very exasperated. and i have to set up all my drivers again. 麻烦 so annoying. :|

::The value of time::

2006-01-13T09:45:00.000+08:00

about 3 months of overseas exercise in this short frame of 2 years.. i think i'm ready for London. how worse can things get??

::I'm schizo, i need to see a shrink!::

2006-01-05T10:01:00.000+08:00

i think deep in my heart, i'm evil and black-hearted, scheming and unforgiving.. think i'll go to hell for that :| but i guess, i deserve it... hmms..

have already gotten 5 modules in hand (cm1121, cm1131, lsm1302 genes and soc, pr2202 perfume and cosmetics, ssa 2204 nation building), but i want to try for french.. wait till friday's bidding round and i shall show-hand all my points >.< i'm seriously going crazy..

gotta clear my shelves and tidy up my stuff, oh how i enjoy it!! :D

k think i really need a shrink, any good recommendations???

::Mixed emotions::

2006-01-02T09:18:00.000+08:00

first of all, happy 2006 to all!! hope it'll be a better year for everyone, pink of health, lotsa money and what-have-you. and of course world peace (kinda like Miss Universe, i know..).

then, to hell with unscrupulous bidders of cm1161.. like i always said, don't even bother to plan a perfect timetable. because once bidding starts, your wonderful timetable will probably be spoilt by other bidders who always outbid you. i mean, unless you've got a whole bagful of a few thousand points, don't even bother. go for the crappiest sounding, most boring and what-the-hell modules they offer. you'll probably get them for just 1 point, and not havin to spend like at least 700+ points on the bloody applied chem. bugger. just because i'm poor, i shouldn't be denied a chance of getting a decent education.

and all i can say, duh duh you have my full support :)

::Silent Night::

2005-12-25T10:24:00.000+08:00

merry christmas people!! :) had a wonderful christmas eve yesterday, thanks to duh duh :) and took lotsa cute pix all over the place..

this is the istana, special lightings so different from the rest of orchard rd..

say cheese! i like the effect of the bus travelling past.. in case you were wondering, we put the cam on one of those railings beside the road..

time for a party! yups they have such party hats in jack's place where we had our dinner :)

oh yah.. this is goody from TY, he's like half hidden under the party hat except for the gingerbreadman lolx

our candlelight dinner (oh well, the candle started off quite long haha)

mocktail in little jack.. felt kinda cheated but anyway, haha we got to keep little jack ;)

the cute lil appetizer, with bits of turkey ham (i think the thing about turkey is seriously pverhyped, they're the least bit delicious haa)

lobster bisque (has the familiar taste of kopitiam's 虾面汤 hmmms..)

jill had.. salmon, a prawn, lotsa gan dang and a bit of vege

jack has.. half a lobster, chicken chop, lotsa gan dang and a bit of vege

looks kinda horrible doesn't it? it's er.. log ice cream (while i think log cake is another one of those overhyped christmas item, ice cream is definitely more fulfilling *yums*)

us with goody :)

and finally back at home, christmas present from duh..

Goddess of chocolates!!!!!!! :)

considering this will be our last christmas dinner before he does not get to celebrate a tropical christmas here anymore next year, it's quite good la.. though the food's a bit *hmmms*, company is what matters in the end hehe :) thanks for the wonderful 白色圣诞 duh duh! and to everyone else, have a wonderfully happy merry christmas :)

::Nightmare before Christmas eve::

2005-12-23T13:53:00.000+08:00

i don't think it's a very good idea to release results before christmas.. totally kills off the christmas spirits sia.. it's kinda sian to see that kind of so-near-yet-so-far results. my results stink. they look and smell like a pile of shit. but well.. hais. must work harder next sem le :|

::Messy ramblings::

2005-12-18T21:59:00.000+08:00

What i like: being in a light hearted mood with my family*hanging out with wonderful friends*spending quality time with duh duh*ogling at michael owen*laughing like mad woman*eating and spending money on glorious food :)
What i dislike: feelin a stomachache but nothing happens when you run to the toilet (if you know what i mean..)*lizard droppin off the door and scarin you sick*大姨妈 purposely being late and popping up from nowhere*贱女人 (includin 抢男朋友的女人/跟别人跑掉的女人/unreasonable 的女人)*烂男人 (includin 对女朋友不好的男人/一脚踏两船的男人) :(

i'm kinda schizophrenic..

::Blue and Black::

2005-12-15T10:25:00.000+08:00

this is the shit you get after 3 days of funking and sliding all over the floor.. >.<

::And more pix!!::

2005-12-11T09:15:00.000+08:00

Qiulin's 21st birthday party (101205)

::Pix!!::

2005-12-11T08:50:00.000+08:00

heh have been collecting photos to put up here these few days, hence my absence :)

03S23 chalet (081205 - 091205)

::Nothing much to be said::

2005-12-07T15:17:00.000+08:00

there's dance later, well just gotta keep telling myself that all this hardwork is worth it. it's not easy, to learn things from scratch and going through so much injuries and difficulties. hmmms still contemplating whether or not to continue with it next sem.

and i shall turn this blog into a photo blog, go around take photos of every other thing i see. but first, i've to hone up my photo-taking skills.

s23 chalet tmr, really can't wait to meet up with them. i realised i miss a lot of my friends. all the way up to my primary school friends. looking forward to meet up with them real soon. there's 4d lunch, miss the cute devils.. missing everyone so so much..

it's the holidays.. christmas is coming.. haa but do i feel the love that's supposed to come with it? not that i know. hmmz. :X

::Shit shit shit shit shit shit::

2005-11-29T17:02:00.000+08:00

you know, all you need is a bit of shit to plunge you into the total darkness and loneliness in life. i adore Lord Voldermort and Darth Vader.

::2-D or 3-D??::

2005-11-29T11:18:00.000+08:00

::Spellbound::

2005-11-27T13:11:00.000+08:00

it's like God's Gift from Above.. :)

::Hopeful::

2005-11-25T15:28:00.000+08:00

it kinda appalled me when i went online to search for "singnet nano promotion".. my mum just renewed the broadband contract with singnet, and along came a redemption for Apple iPod Nano 4GB *drops saliva at the thought of it* so i went online to check out the details of the redemption.. it kinda scared me when the search came up with numberous blog entries of people who have signed up too and gushing about the nano..

which is bad, coz this means every other person out there is gunning for the nano like me.. hais i want to go exchange it soooooon, and hope there's still stock left or i'd feel so cheated signing up for it.. leave a nano for meeee!

k think i shall go down real soon.. meanwhile, unable to stand the temptation of the dark side, i went to watch Goblet of Fire yesterday with me cousins.. the movie turned out fine, i mean it satisfied my urge to witness the unfolding of the events in the wizarding world once again, and more humour this time round definitely tickled me (part where severus rolled up his sleeves and whacked potter/ron).. but i guess it wasn't quite as explanatory as the book and it'd probably leave people who haven't read the book more bewildered than ever.. haahaa gonna watch it again come 30th hehe.. and i don't think cedric diggory (as portrayed in the movie) was that good-lookin, i still kinda fancy oliver woods (who had been mercilessly left out of the movie when he oughta have appeared for a cameo in the quidditch world cup :|).. though the part on him dying was quite sad.. *sniff* hehs people who haven't watched it, shooo!

meanwhile, back to calculus.. *pukes all over the place*

::3 down, 2 to go::

2005-11-23T19:19:00.000+08:00

i'm like so happy can? althought today's cm1111 was like total crap, at least i managed to complete the crossword puzzle.. yes, can you believe it? we have a section on chemistry crossword puzzle for exam?! *pengz* calculus and gek to go, like the 2 hardest.. haha but that's gotta wait till next wk.. meanwhile, liverpool match awaits me later!! :)

and after exams, so many things to do: out gai gai with joyce on 30th, Goblet of Fire with duh duh, s23 chalet on the 8th woohoo(!!), bia Initial D vcds, lunch gathering with devils, exco outings, serene's bbq, meeting up with suonaists, k-ing with seniors, finish reading the whole series of Harry Potter again, dance practices and performance *excited*, meeting up with primary school friends, christmas dinner and new year countdown with duh duh, and hope to work part time too..wahahaha can't wait lohs.. still got space for people to jio me out, any takers? ;)

meanwhile... back on earth, shall try to mug calculus soon..... zzzzZzz (-.-")

::Potty over Harry Potter::

2005-11-21T21:42:00.000+08:00

just watched the tv version of Harry Potter and The Chamber of Secrets.. haha so nice lohs, still remember when my sec4 class went to watch together in the midst of our O Levels period..

"..Yeepeez!!! we watched Harry Potter and The Chamber of Secrets yesterdae!!! hahaz, so shuangz...n i m going to watch it AGAIN!!! ahahahaz.... and Oliver Woods rockz (tt Quidditch captain for Potter's house).... ahahaz, basically, whenever Oliver Woods appeared on the screen, those around me knew it was a disaster coz i was yelping like mad.... ahahahahaz, Ollie Woods rockz... but then, they cut away a lot of the Quidditch scene, sian diaoz.......... anyway, the show's nice, so go watch it..... *shiokz*....haiz, watching the show was not at all easy, we bia all the way to JP, onli to find out tt the 4:35 one was full house, 5:20 one onli had 12 tix left n wasn't enough for the whole lot of us....so landed up watching in JE....... still, i watched the movie liaoz, shuangz........." (from detention: You'll never walk alone)

and i can't wait to watch Goblet of Fire too. but that's gotta be after the exams, damn long lehs.. i'm only 2/5 through the whole damn thing.. >.< jiayou ah people.. oh well, at least there ae a lot of stuff to look forward to during the holidays :)

::Cheers to St Owen::

2005-11-14T21:40:00.000+08:00

my laogong! zai boh..?

::Urghs::

2005-11-07T16:54:00.000+08:00

some people are just so buai hiao bai，kenna sai./有些人就是这么不要脸，像屎一样。

-how's my translation? hehs.

::Heehee::

2005-11-04T15:23:00.000+08:00

heh thanks for consoling me regarding the player, feelin a lot better le :) n thanks for the nano offer duh duh really appreciate it a lot :D

it's been a wonderful nine hundred and ninety-nine days for me :)

::没有了你，我的生活变了::

2005-10-30T22:05:00.000+08:00

if not for my act-smart self-diagnosis, you wouldn't have died.. rest in peace, i'll miss you forever >.<

::High Activation Energy::

2005-10-27T08:53:00.000+08:00

haha yups, exams are coming.. 1st of all, good lucks to juniors taking your 'O' Levels.. then to juniors in year 2 taking your 'A' Levels.. to dear friends in NTU taking the exams very soon.. and to people in NUS like me who are taking the exams not-quite-soon, but soon enough to start panicking.. >.< (p/s: when's SMU startin theirs??) 加油 ah people.. :) shall look forward to all the fun after exams!!

-toppled over a jar of ethanoic acid-..-bleahs-

::I don't like::

2005-10-23T11:18:00.000+08:00

doing a lab report before even doing your experiment. what the hell..
to convert all the present tense instructions on the lab manual to past tense and rewrite them on your report.
having to complete 2x lab reports within the week.
exams are coming. very soon.
growing fat.
having weird dreams.

::幸福的小女人::

2005-10-18T21:31:00.000+08:00

saw this nick of this person (i don't know who) on my msn list, found it especially meaningful：A guy who shops patiently with the girl, and carries an umbrella with him all the time in case she gets caught in the rain.. Never let him go.

::Growing fat::

2005-10-17T16:06:00.000+08:00

unlike someone who's finding herself growing another butt, i found my butt developing horizontally! urghs.. i'm going for a run later no matter what. and i'm starting to have a spare tyre. sheesh. having too many breaks in between lessons makes you fat. or at least that's the case for me. 5 meals a day is a no-prob for me, and whenever i'm free or feel like munching i'd head for the canteen - my favourite haunt in school. shit la. and then came the horror of realisation. i was in my OP berms and i saw my reflection in the mirror: how come my butt looks so big.. >.< it was then that i got the rude awakening: i'm growing fat!! sheesh. time to exercise real soon. and dance has stopped for the sem, so there's like no outlet to sweat it out. i really needa run. wish me lucks in my 减肥 plan!! :)

::Sleepless in Singapore::

2005-10-15T09:17:00.000+08:00

haha thanks for the various suggestions on financial aid, yups think they have scholarships to go on sep so i shall aim for that. erms the part on saving 3K outta 900 pounds a bit far fetched la huh..

anyways i just realised coffee in the evening is not my cup of tea. *ironic* yesterday was waitin for gek lecture to start at 6, and the spinelli coffee seemed to irrisistable, so i bought cookie spin and happily enjoyed the sinful indulgence. then at night it was time to sleep, no matter how much i tossed and turned my mind was still racing away. there was no way i could fall asleep!! :| all the way until 2am *urghs* n woken up at 7 by my sis.. thanks so much.

::SEP::

2005-10-13T17:06:00.000+08:00

can someone tell me how and where i can apply for Student Exchange Programme??? and where i can get the money for it??? (one sem in europe is like 8k to 10k).

::What are the keys to your heart?::

2005-10-11T13:07:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

::Just thinking out loud::

2005-10-09T10:13:00.000+08:00

in view of the recent case of bloggers being jailed for making insensible and stupid remarks on their blogs, i was just wondering recently...

is criticising people of my own race considered 'discriminatory'? i.e. is there such a thing as discriminating your own race??
and will i get jailed if i insult osama bin laden here on my blog?

*puzzled*

::Alright::

2005-10-07T08:25:00.000+08:00

life is just so freaking boring for freaking boring old me. :|

::Dreams big time::

2005-10-01T21:36:00.000+08:00

i'm a big dreamer, a humongous one in fact. just this morning, i woke up remembering that i dreamt of at least 5 dreams last night, and just about the same number the night before. sucks. i know there are people who really want to remember their dreams. i won't mind if they're nice dreams where prince charming appears or you struck a million bucks lottery. but no. i dreamt of him running away with some other bitch, of saddam hussein doing his evil deeds right here in singapore, of a so called spoilt lift that takes 1hr just to get to the 7th storey. for goodness sake, i don't want to remember weird dreams, but i just can't control. and i'm totally freaked out by it. :|

::Oh whatever..::

2005-09-29T14:29:00.000+08:00

hias i just did this mid term chem test online, and flunked big time. a meagre 18/60. haha like what the hell. it's not even o8 by A level standard. damn it, think this is really bad. i'm in uni and i'm not even of A level standard. screwed up. sheesh. nothing to say. =X except "ivle tests sucks big time"

::Shittening::

2005-09-26T17:39:00.000+08:00

this is damn shit. chem test on wed cm1111. chem test on thursday cm1101 (on ivle.. what the..?!). chem lab report due next week (after extension). maths test coming up. gek project untouched but due soon. gek homework untouched. shit. shit. k k should stop panicking and go back to studying. but somehow, there doesn't seem to be any drive in me.

~~may the mugging force be with me. always.~~

::Amazing weekend::

2005-09-20T10:50:00.000+08:00

yups met up with the 4d people (8 pathetic souls) in the so-called outing on saturday. haha somehow thought it was a wrong-timing kinda mistake to organise it on that day, almost everybody (except for the 8 of us) had some kind of reason or another not to turn up for the dinner. but heh shall try harder next time round.. on the way, was entertained by the army and ns stories by the 5 towering guys (i think their average height is about 1.8m, and imagine how dwarfed i felt). was really freaking cheesy la. same old them. called for the supposed nice barley drink (...), mee goreng, chicken wings (go all the way to thomson just for the chicken wings..), tofu and chilli crab. well i guess that was the most worth it dish le. nice la. very nice. but other than that, hmmms.. maybe next time we should give uncle jerry's suggestion a miss..? >.< and went to watch this jack neo's show - one more chance - hehs quite lame lors, all the better if you can understand hokkien then you'll find it real hilarious. but a ted too vulgar i think.

mid-autumn festival on sunday. went east coast park with him to 赏月. before that, we just sat around, played 'bluff' in which he was more terrible than i was, had dinner at a kopitiam and watched the liverpool-man u match. much to the jeering of the many liverpool fans there, the game ended with a boring 0-0 draw :| waste time. then went back to the beach, the moon was simply spectacular, especially it shining on the waters. heh and we played with the fireworks.. didn't have time for candles though.. haha happy mid-autumn festival to all :)

海上升明月

陪我们去看流星雨 :P

::Darn the chem report::

2005-09-16T08:19:00.000+08:00

finally completed. after 7.5 hours.. to hell with the lab report.

(p/s: my entries seems to shorten in length with time)

::无题::

2005-09-14T19:07:00.000+08:00

如果要相见都这么困难，那就不要见了。

::Hell let loose::

2005-09-14T08:32:00.000+08:00

yesterday was terrible. simply terrible. my comp screwed up on me. (but thankfully it was revived). had to endure an 8am to 8pm day. started with econs test early in the morning. then there was the seemingly impossible to do lab report. (not that it's gonna get any better today). ridiculous maths lab session that made me realise once again how dumb i am. then the gek lecture which i was no longer paying attention. wanted to buy a hot tea but the auntie refused to sell it to me. but the other guys got it. :|. then when i reached home the comp thing happened. then... oh well, i don't want to talk about it anymore.
hope today will be a better day.

will it..?

::Mind boggling::

2005-09-12T22:37:00.000+08:00

some people are just so freaking weird. got handphone don't want to reply smses/don't want to pick up phone, then what's the point of buying a freaking phone. just donate the money to me la. sign in to msn yet put 'away'/'busy' all the time, might as well don't sign in at all? this called 多此一举 seriously wondering why..

::Bits and pieces::

2005-09-12T19:30:00.000+08:00

a lot of stuff on my mind, don't know where to start lehs.

-should start from the happiest: havin a devils class dinner at thomson this sat (17/9), meet 5pm at newton mrt station ctrl. it's some tze cha that uncle jerry suggested. hope it's good (but then, think of his movie recommendation the other time - ghostship.. oh well..). so my dear devils, try to make it k. miss you guys so so much!!
the next happiest thing, we're gonna have a new devils class tee!! it's a simple design, black and white, and an interesting design.. but it's $14 la, so you might wanna consider. gonna put the pix of the tee up when i get it :) if interested, sms me, or better still bring money on sat k!!

-lotsa things to complete: gek project, gek homework, studying for all my mid-term tests, catching up on maths and chem, and etc. so many thing, so little time. so damn sad. oh ya, and bloody chem lab report.

-to do: kill off any mosquitoes insight before they kill me off. so dangerous la, something so small can kill so many people.. hope the number of cases start dropping..

-face up to reality.

-rv is gonna have an ip, i won't mind seeing my friends for another 2 more years but guess the experience won't be as exciting as jc life. and it's not gonna move back to the original site :| now it makes no sense to go back and visit anymore.

-and to girls whose very good guy friends are in the army, don't freaking run away with some other freaking guys. it's terribly mean and horrid to do so..

::Can't see eye to eye::

2005-09-11T20:26:00.000+08:00

i think i'm a difficult person to get along with. it's not that bad when you are just an ordinary passing person in my life. but ask those who are close to me or know me for a long time, they'd tell you i can be a total bitch sometime. so the next time you think i'm nice to you, think again. perhaps we're not exactly great friends after all.

::It's a depressing life::

2005-09-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

it's so depressing nowadays, number of dengue cases on the rise, another murder and chop-up case here in singapore, killer typhoons hitting US, China, Japan, more people hating one another, more girlfriends running away, more weirdoes met in uni, less nice songs on the release.. somehow, the end of the world seems to be nearer and nearer. k don't brand me as a freak as yet, i think it's going to happen.. >.<

世界末日的那天，你会在我身边吗？

::開不了口::

2005-09-08T18:29:00.000+08:00

There are some things that you really want to say, to tell the whole world that things are not like what they seem to everyone, that what we hope will happen does not always happen, and what we do is just an act for everyone. Just so many things left unspoken, assuming too much is never to anyone's benefit.

開不了口

才離開沒多久就開始擔心今天的妳過的好不好
整個畫面都是妳想妳想到睡不著
嘴嘟嘟那可愛的模樣還有在妳身上香香的味道
我的快樂是妳想一想的都會笑
沒有妳在我有多難熬 (沒有妳在我有多難熬多煩惱)
沒有妳煩我有多煩惱 (沒有妳煩我有多煩惱多難熬)
穿過雲層我試著努力向妳奔跑
愛才送到妳卻已在別人懷抱
就是開不了口讓她知道
我一定會呵護著妳也逗妳笑
妳對我有多重要我後悔沒讓妳知道
安靜的聽妳撒嬌看妳睡著一直到老
就是開不了口讓她知道
就是那麼簡單幾句我辦不到
整顆心懸在半空我只能夠遠遠看著
這些我都做得到但那個人已經不是我

::Things to do::

2005-09-05T08:58:00.000+08:00

think i have a lot to do lehs, such a procrastinator >.< let's see..

-wash my lab coat (yups i'm so lazy i haven't actually washed it since lab on friday)

-catch up on my maths lecture (have been clueless since the very first lecture)

-install my zen micro driver into this lappie.

-get him a something haha *sshh* secret for now

-a new sling bag so that i won't hog up too much space with this silly looking bag of mine (and can carry my lappie adaptor to school without feeling too heavy)

-go see a doctor about my skin (i'm gonna do just that later)

-psycho the exco to change 17th outing to afternoon - people, if you are reading this, say yes k :) yups love ya all!!

-spread the message for 4d dinner on 17th - people if you are reading this, take note of the date!!

-get a few more three quarters to wear to school ;)

-find out what in my computer is attracting so many ants..?!

hmms looks like a lot to do eh, but at least i've done this:
washed and dried my piglet camera pouch

feel proud of me k :)

::Clueless::

2005-09-04T15:31:00.000+08:00

hmms what's that supposed to mean..? *absolutely clueless*

::Happy Teacher's Day::

2005-09-01T12:43:00.000+08:00

today is teacher's day but sadly, tertiary institutes don't seem to value the sanctity of teaching that much, so no holidays for us poor things =X

shall take this opportunity to pay tribute to my dear teachers dating all the way back to 10 years ago ;) [er actually is since he's gonna become a teacher next time, i should start being nice to teachers in general so that his students would be nice to him next time *hopefully*]

Ms Seah, Mr Ang, Mrs Lau from my primary school

Mr Neville Teo, Mrs Woo, Ms Wan, Mr Tan (CO teachers in charge), Ms Chia, Mr Suria, Mrs Lim, Mrs Law, Chen lao shi, Mrs LLM, Mr Yuen, and of course beloved Mdm Teo from my secondary school

Ms Wong, Ms Loh, Ms Cross, Mr Goh, Mrs Chiew, Mr Ang, Mrs Lim from my jc

erms.. none for uni lecturers, they're just forgetable la haha. yups so happy teacher's day! :)

::The family portrait::

2005-08-30T13:21:00.000+08:00

Just for laugh :D

And my notebook just screwed me up yesterday, thankfully it's well now.. it'd better be guai and ting hua.. *cracks knuckles menacingly*

::Huo4 bu4 dan1 xing2::

2005-08-24T08:21:00.000+08:00

seems like all bad things have to happen together. hehs i'm like gonna be late because i had to print some crap notes last minute, ya and i'm still blogging. right right. and the best thing was my printer ran out of ink, so later i'm gonna go to school with only 4 pages (out of 18) of my lecture notes printed. shit. it's damn sian. all the bloody printing of notes. :|

and my notebook is still not here yet. it's damn irritating when you look around and all your friends have goten theirs. hais shouldn't have done the loan in the first place, maybe they didn't grant my loan? maybe they thought that i'd be rich enough to survive without the stupid loan? hell no! bring me my notebook, quick! >.<

and when is my stupid cough gonna stop? bugger..

august is just not my month man..

::Bittersweet victories competitions::

2005-08-19T12:47:00.000+08:00

england lost 1-4 to denmark. what the..? and there eriksson was saying this is the 'best line up' ever. i mean come to think of it, since when wasn't it the 'best line up' ever? everytime there's an england match coming up, flip open a newspaper and there you see the infamous quote from the dear old england coach 'i believe this is the best england line up ever'. someone explain to him the meaning of 'best'. and quoting owen after the match "thankfully this is not a world cup qualifier". i'm so glad he knows that it's not a qualifier. admitingly, i'm a cynical half-hearted fan of england, so thankfully the bitterness of losing wasn't as strong. urghs. and speaking of dear owen, rumour has it that he's coming back to liverpool..? =X don't know what to comment on. hehs.

for something closer to us, the results of project superstar (channel u) came out last night. battling the drowsiness brought about by my cough medication, me stayed up to watch it. as expected, kelly won. and so did kelvin. eh wait, the victory of kelvin wasn't what most of us expected, was it? i have nothing against kelvin (in fact i really do admire his courage and determination etc) but don't we all feel that junyang ought to be in the finals instead? maybe we see it as a given so much so that we tend to take things for granted. carry too high a hope on him. and when he got ousted, most people out there were more surprised than any other emotion. many were probably wondering why on earth he was eliminated, considering he had much higher score and apparently more fans than kelvin.. i was rather baffled too. to me, it was likened as the victory of london over paris in the bid for olympics2012. the much anticipated team lost to the underdog (think england losing to denmark). it's the same here, and in most situations we face in our lives. *sighs* sad, isn't it? >.<

::$10 for a peace of mind::

2005-08-17T18:57:00.000+08:00

(updated by serene's request.. heh super da4 pai2 can..?)

couple of days ago, i decided to be nice to my camera and took out the service kit that came as a freebie when i first bought the cam. there was a cleaning solution, and after reading the instructions on it, i did as it said and started cleaning the lens (p/s: lens not equal lcd screen). after a few minutes when i decided the lens should be clean enough, i switched on the lcd screen hoping to see the fruits of my labour.

to my great big horror, the screen was BLURRED. not just blur, but very very blur. it was like the movie The Eye when she just removed her protective sash from the operation. or you can imagine the special effect of distortion through glass in Photoshop software. all in all, it was scaringly blur. and i freaked out totally. it was scary you know, thinking $600 plus going down the drain just because of some stupid cleaning solution gone wrong..?!

panicky, i called canon helpline and they said all i could do was "bring down here immediately to let them see what was wrong". rushing and grabbing my wallet, hp, precious cam and the cursed solution, me hopped onto the first cab i could see and chiong down to harbourfront.

on the cab, i was still damn freaked out but when i looked at the lcd screen again, the blurness seemed to have cleared up somehow. but i thought that if i asked the taxi uncle to turn back to my house there, he'll probably kill me or something. and it was no harm going there to make sure nothing was wrong.

so i reached there, waited for 45min, got laughed off by the CS officer as she seemed to be saying like i was paranoid or something, just to make sure all was fine. thanks heaven it was. so much so for paying $10 and being assured that my cam was safe and sound. *phew*

::To Singapore, with love::

2005-08-09T12:01:00.000+08:00

What makes Singapore special? Since it's our country's 40th da4 shou4, shall do a list of stuff that means a lot to us Singaporeans :)

1. Changi Airport - The 1st welcome sign for anyone who comes to this country.

2. Singapore Airlines (SIA) - Best Airline in the world (yet again).

3. SIA girl - Trademark smile, warm service attitude, and of course, the blue/green/red sarong kebaya.

4. Orchids - National flower of Singapore - the Vanda Miss Joaquim.

5. Singapore City Skyline - A familiar sight which signifies Singapore's bustling economy.

6. Keppel Harbour - The port that never sleeps.

7. Singapore River - Cradle to the start of Singapore's civilisation.

8. Esplanade Centre for the Arts - World class stage for performance and a classy symbol to our favourite fruit.

9. HDB flats - Unique to Singapore and was even featured in The Amazing Race.

10. Orchard Road - Shopping paradise for locals and foreigners alike.

11. Hawker centre/coffee shops - How do you differentiate the two? I still dunno..

12. Merlion - The symbol that represents and protects Singapore.

13. Food, food, glorious food - Eating happens to be Singaporeans' favourite past-time.

14. Kiasu-ism - A special trait among Singaporeans, literally means fear of losing to others.

15. Fine City - Spit and chew gums at the risk of being FINEd.

16. Singlish - A language unique to us, greatly discouraged by teachers (but i think they speak it too).

17. Lee Kuan Yew - Would Singapore be as prosperous without him?

18. Singapore Armed Forces - Best nation building policy (i'm sure the guys would agree, like it or not).

19. Pasar Malam - A place to get cheap bargains and Ramly burgers.

20. Newater - A giant step towards self-sufficing.

21. MRT - Mode of transport for near 2 million people everyday.

22. Fireworks Display - Singaporeans never miss a chance to catch these spectacular displays (National Day, New Year eve etc).

23. National Stadium - Currently undergoing renovations, a witness to the progress of Singapore's sporting arena.

24. Kallang Wave - Who can forget the wave that got all Singaporeans united during the days of Malaysian Cup?

25. Sentosa - A little getaway from the busy city life - beautiful beaches, seas and girls.

26. Swissotel - Prominent landmark that was the tallest hotel in the world.

27. Raffles Hotel and her famous Porter - Mention hotels in Singapore and she would be the first to come to our minds.

28. Singapore Sling - The famous cocktail from Raffles Hotel's Long Bar is a reknown drink all over the world.

29. Stefanie Sun - Pop princess of Asia and singer for 2 consecutives National Day theme songs.

30. Tiger Beer - Thought it was from overseas? Nah. It's literally home-made.

31. Laksa - Coconut-milk filled gravy, sinful but who can resist?

32. Hainanese Chicken Rice - Overseas Singaporeans miss this dish the most.

33. Rojak - A local delight that reflects our rich mix of races, cultures and languages.

34. Bah Kwa - Best gift for overseas friends, they simply love it.

35. Hokkien Mee - Singapore's answer to Italian spaghetti, with our own flavouring.

36. Satay - Kebab with a local twist. Best satay eatery? The authentic Satay Club.

37. Roti Prata - Flip and flap. Indian pancake anyone?

38. Durian - Famous D24 at Geylang, and the rich creamy durian puffs at our very own Goodwood Park Hotel (The King is back!).

39. Chilli Crab - Finger sucklingly delicious, and the gravy goes best with jiam-tao-roti.

40. Char Kway Teow - Dangerously high in cholesterol, but irresistable smell and taste (especially with the han1).

Yups, Happy Birthday Singapore! :)

::Ode to the module bidding system::

2005-08-03T11:51:00.000+08:00

if in a time in the future, you see sky-high speculations in the stock market, don't be surprised if the speculators are made up of nus students. yups that's (sadly) what they teach us when we step foot into the campus on the very 1st day. they teach us to outwit/outscheme and most importantly outbid one another. and as freshies, we're the lowest lifeforms here in school. the puniest bit of dirt and dust here in school. we're, in short, virtually non-existent and insignificant here. and this means that we'd be having the least number of points to pit and fight against seniors who have had their points already snowballed in their many years here. so well, as you can guess, some of us didn't manage to get the modules we so very much wanted to get. as for tutorials, we are subjected to balloting for slots that we have signed up for. haha so our fate lies in the hands of lady luck so exciting. and when things don't go your way (i.e. getting lectures and tutorials into the slots in the timetable which you have painstakingly built), you've got to start from scratch altogether.

if let's say there's really one thing i have learnt after my years in uni (other than my field of specialisation), it is to scheme against everybody else. and the lesson that life is not always smooth-sailing. at the expense of the freedom to choose how i want to be educated.

::What the hell::

2005-08-01T11:44:00.000+08:00

hais.. screwed up a bit in the module bidding.. why the hell do they want to make it soo flexible, so much so that i'm very confused over when to bid what. hais. so sian.. urghs. :|

::Pre school jitters::

2005-07-26T12:45:00.000+08:00

yep school term has started for ntu. hope my friends are surviving fine there :) and now, as i wait for my turn to start school, there's this sort of jittery nervy feeling in me. on one hand, i'm looking forward to it as it finally marks a break to these seemingly never-ending slacking days of mine. haha and i want to experience mugger life once more (it's been 8 months since i last mugged) lolx.

went for the talks yesterday, finally cleared some of my doubts regarding terms like MCs, CAPs, all those module bidding crap.. hehs oh well, i don't know if i can cope, that's for sure.. well, guess i'll have to think of ways to get myself out of trouble if it ever comes my way. haha. going for matriculation later on, hmmphs.. means that i'll be an nussie officially. discussed some of the money matters with my parents last night, came to the conclusion that uni is really a big money vacuum cleaner. >.< so financially taxing..

and i'm reading harry potter and the half blood prince now!! though i've already been told almost the entire story le. haha okies back to reading.. tata people! :)

::Cruising around::

2005-07-26T11:24:00.000+08:00

Seen it. Done it.

-f.o.o.d (5 meals a day... hmmphs. needs no elaboration.)
-s.e.a (yi2 wang4 wu2 ji4)
-s.u.n (rained on the 2nd morning, but generally sunny throughout the trip.)
-b.r.e.e.z.y (yeps sea breeze rocks!)
-f.u.n (arcade, karaoke, performance, soaking up in the jaccuzzi... weeez~)
-s.h.u.a.i.g.e (sad to say, there was none la. really none at all. bleahs.:|)
-p.h.o.t.o.s (let the pictures do the talking!!)

SS Virgo

Day 1 Dinner 1 - Mediterranean International buffet

SS Virgo and the 3 of us :)

That's Sentosa behind us, by the way

Day 1 Dinner 2 - Chinese restaurant

Perfect setting for a pix - outside Bellini restaurant

The Golden Horse Awards - Best girl group :)

Mount Krakatoa?! Heh hopes not..

1, 2, 3! Kawaii nehx :)

Blue sky white clouds

Sunset on the deep blue sea

~~Moulin Rougue~~The Lido

Us in the cabin on last day

::Hehs::

2005-07-15T11:56:00.000+08:00

i think there's serious problem with my comp/internet settings. somehow, when i want to visit some of the blogs, there's this send error message thing that pops up and closes all windows. otherwise, i just somehow can't leave taggies on other blogs. hais so people, i do read you blogs just that i can't leave tags ya? *sad*

going out with s23 girls for dinner later, having a devils gathering on sunday, and going for cruise with mel and huiz next week, quite excited especially when you know that food, sun, sea and fun is promised. shuaiges, maybe..? guess it's quite a fulfilling thing to do - catch up with friends before school starts. and i can't imagine myself being in uni already. probably coz i have the mentality of a 16 year old...?! and i'm a lost sheep when it comes to uni admin stuff. hmms someone save me!! >.<

watched jue dui superstar last night, how glad i was when kelvin (wei lian) got in!! hehs he's such an inspiration lors, hope he can go as far as the competition can bring him :) and harry potter book 6 is coming out tomorrow. haha didn't buy, gonna borrow from joyce and stay up the entire night to read it. :) heard dumbledore's gonna die, hope not.. =X

steven gerrard is stayin in liverpool afterall, with all those saga goin on.. must it happen every season? >.< duh duh's coming back in 2 weeks' time hehe *lookin forward*

and i had a series of weird dreams, but one of them oughta be the craziest. i dreamt that i was shot by someone with a gun. then with the bullet still lodged in my tummy, i could still walk around (cool and calm) and showing my parents the hole made by the bullet on my shirt. it wasn't as bloody as it should have been, and the most wicked thing was my parents actually waited till the next morning "when the hospital is open" (got such thing? thought it's opened 24hr?!) before sending me to get the bullet dislodged. and all the while, there wasn't much pain, just the sort of discomfort you experince when you need the toilet. haha and i willed myself to wake up, touch my tummy to make sure there wasn't any gun wound.. thank goodness it's just a dream..

::News review: NKF saga::

2005-07-15T10:33:00.000+08:00

recently, we were (hmms i think most of us were, anyway) quite put off when we learnt that nkf's ceo earns $600k a year, that makes it $1.8m in 3 years in his reign as ceo. i think i won't even earn $1m if i slog all my life away. sighs i guess that's what one gets for being capable bah. then he (along with the board of directors) stepped down yesterday, amidst pressure from the public.. guess some of us would think he prbably deserves it, he was the one who tried to sue this journalist in the 1st place, and subsequently when it was revealed in court that his annual salary was so much, people started getting disgusted. if he had kept his mouth shut, things would have been different. preceding events included online petition to get him booted hitting a high 40,000 petitioners, people vandalising nkf hq (rather uncivilised, if you ask me), people calling up nkf to either curse and swear at the poor customer service officers or demanding to get back their donations. somehow, through this incident, it showed the good and bad, pretty and ugly sides of singaporeans.

personally, i'm rather ambivalent towards this. for one, i'm as disturbed by the way he uses nkf's funds as others are. maintaining his private car, fixing a gold tap in his office etc. it makes people more agitated when we learn that only 50% of the funds we donate go to the patients. it is simply too little. no doubt, it is a big organisation, operational costs are high, but it doesn't mean that higher authorities can misuse the funds in such ways. besides, charitable organisations ought to be transparent on how the funds are used. i guess, what the majority of donors want, is to know how the funds are used and have a clear transparent report done on monetary issues. on the other hand, i think people who have called and demand that their donations be refunded are too petty. by doing so, the meagre 50c out of the $1 he donates doesn't even get to the patients. the poor patients rely a lot on the generosity of people, and i think it is rather unfair to them as they had to suffer because of the actions of certain people. we donate out of goodwill, sympathy for the patients, the want for them to get better treatment and such, it is not right to shun donations just because of this single incident. some people just think that donating money makes them super high and above all. those who have donated millions of dollars to the organisation are not making the slightest bit of noise, so why are those who have donated a few dollars making such a big hoo-huh? *puzzled*

hope things settle down and get better as we go on..

::Bastards will rot in hell::

2005-07-09T09:52:00.000+08:00

This is what I (and other normal people out there who want a free and peaceful life) hope would happen to the suicide bombers/terrorists/masterminds and whatever shit posts they have in their freaking organizations who claim to do justice when they carry out attack on others’ lives. They feel damn righteous being part of the suicide mission, as if it’s some glory and what shit. As if they’d go to heaven and meet God and such. But we all know that it’s not true. The fact is they will rot in hell. I don’t understand how ~~people~~ beasts like them can be so naïve and childish to think that by carrying out such demeaning horrifying acts, they are seen as heroes. Ok, maybe seen as heroes by ~~people~~ subjects who are equally warped up and sick in the mind as them, but definitely not the majority of us who are sane and truly righteous. We all treasure our lives and those of people around us, even though we may not know them. Yet all these ~~people~~ bastards have to do is set off a series of silly bombs and poof goes the lives of the many innocent. Only sadistic ~~people~~ shit heap like them are capable of such cowardy and barbaric acts. (Note: they've been downgraded from beasts to bastards to shit heap). Maybe NASA can consider a little investment and do the world justice by sending them off to space and let them die in space as space junk (Note: and now from shit heap to space junk). It's such a disappointment and shame to learn that we co-exist in the same world as them :| Hail world peace!

::Sweet Nineteen::

2005-07-06T11:02:00.000+08:00

woke up yesterday, feeling as if it was yet another normal day. Until I saw my hp said “No space for new message” and I opened it to see I’ve received sms birthday wishes from people like yongx, soochin, eunice, yingqi, yuchun, lynnette, cailing, zhangting, sockhoon, snoozer, ranjay, shuping, duh duh :) etc. haha and later in the day, came msges from jasmine, my cousins and aunt etc. funny serene even called to tell me about the extent to which she went to search high and low for my birthdate ;) haha so touched sia. Thanks people (and all those whom i forgot *oops bad memory*)!! :)

then around noon time, received a delivery from the florist, was from duh duh lohs!! was a bouquet of lilies (my favourite!!) with a big teddy (i think he means himself) carrying a small teddy(i think it’s me) next to the bouquet. haha as the deliveryman left it at the guard house, i went there to collect haha and even they made fun of me lolx :P haha and before he flew to thailand he gave me this cute froggie and piggy photoframe heh so sweet.. thanks duh duh! :)

Bear bears and lilies :)

Lilies :)

Piggy and froggie photo frame :)

after that went joyce’s house for mahjong. At first played till damn shuang haha then somehow they managed to cause a distraction to prepare a so-called surprise for me. they (joyce, qin ning and jiamei) actually baked and decorated a birthday cake (orange flavour with nutella spread) for me sia ;) so touched lohs. and a nice card to go along too!! thanks people I love you guys so so much :) watched part of the initial d cartoon, was soooo funny la (especially the jay chou character) lolx. we went for dinner at a coffee shop near our houses, had zhu2 cao3 lohs. and was their treat!! oh man so touched!! :)
They baked it for me! :)

Super sweet birthday card :)

The 4 of us :)

and my cute njco suona juniors called me up and started blowing “happy birthday” with suona, complete with chords and harmony sia!! haha i was so touched sia, they stayed in tune somemore oh man!! gan dong dao liu lei le wor :’) haha jiayou for thurs wor juniors! many thanks to lynnette, sihui, xiaohui, aaron (who wrote the chords etc), michelle and jingxin :) love ya guys loads~

came home and had my 2nd cake of the day from my family.. haha fattening sia! but I’m happy :) thanks to you guys who made it special in one way or another! take care ya people, you guys rockazoo my world.. *hugs*

The Breadtalk cake :)

Earrings from Mummy :)

Whatever pencil case :)

thanks you guys so so much :)

::The tears just came so naturally::

2005-06-28T13:14:00.000+08:00

last night, i cried. like really cried. he'll be in thailand for 1 whole month, it's probably not a long period of time in absolute terms, but this is probably the longest period of time that i won't be seeing him (even ocs confinement is shorter). oh man, and i can't imagine next year when he has to leave for uk. *urghs*

hehs. and i think people around should stop being insensitive and complain to me how little time their boyfriends spend with them. complain for all you want, but please don't do it to me. 10 days in brunei, near 2 weeks in thailand, about 3 weeks in india, 1 month in thailand (currently), 1 month in new zealand at the end of the year, 4 years in uk from next year onwards. ok, that's the amount of time i won't be seeing him, you guys out there are a lot more fortunate, so please keep your bloody mouth shut and the insensitive complaints away. :|

on a lighter note, really enjoyed myself these few days with him. especially on friday when we went to sentosa, and even created our own comic strip. hehe :)

The search for Duh duh :)

He: Where is Duh duh?
She: Sssshhh.. don't let him find me ;)

He: (scratches head) So difficult to find lehs..
She: Hia hia, don't tell him where i am

He: Shall look behind the L..
She: Hmms where did he disappear to le? Can't see him

He: GOTCHA!
She: Ooops you found me >.<

Hmms.. hope he comes back real soon :)

::A different perspective?::

2005-06-23T15:29:00.000+08:00

this year's birthday would be different.. hmms i guess it's just different from recent years, but still the same as the many pass years.. oh well. with a few close friends, and of course my family. i guess as i grow older and out of school, birthday is no longer the much anticipated celebratory kinda occasion. it's just another day, and even 'what the hell, i'm older again'. *sighs* kids definitely see a lighter note to everything else than people like me.

yesterday's Project Superstar, didn't watch it myself. hmms i hope that guy who's visually handicapped gets in. i'm sorry but i don't know his name la. when i heard him sing 'mai4 huo3 cai2 de xiao2 nu3 hai2' i really cried. for his courage. his optimism. it's like it already takes a lot to go up for competition for anyone who's normal. and him being unable to see takes double or many more times. really admire him for his courage and personality. whether or not he gets the final glory title, i think he's already a superstar. he's one who never gives up, and i'm sure he's won the support of many who sees him as an inspiration and encouragement. never give up, even in the darkest of hours..

my heart ached for the Canadian little boy and his family. the one who was shot dead by those heartless bastards who took kids as hostages in an international school in Cambodia. it's a huge disappointment to all those who thought that humanity has prevailed and started to surface as we progress. but this bloody shootout proved us wrong again. i suppose the minds of all these terrorists have been infested by maggots, why do they have a fetish for killing kids, making them the pawn for negotiations for all those useless material wants. doesn't lives of others matter to them? what if someone does the same to their own kids? acts like this that degrades life are disgusting.

why are you like that? :|

::Exco outing::

2005-06-16T09:55:00.000+08:00

so excited to meet up with the bunch of them. when we did, no ice needed to be broken. it's just so easy to talk to them and such, and not to mention the army-synched guys who mistook my 'which uni are u goin to?' for 'which unit are u goin to'.. haha had a lot of food, and laughter and pissed the pizza hut ppl off.. hehs but who cares? we enjoyed ourselves, and i'm so very glad to have known them :)

The exco0304 feast :)

:spot the differene:

:cheesy serene and me:

:group pix with joel:

:group pix with yongx and alvin (pixelised.. arghs):

:bang!:

:2 chiobus :):

:artistic leftovers:

:birth of our exco outing fund:

P/s: as i don't want to get killed for posting a particular pix here, visit my online album to view what you are looking for ;) (ONLY for those who know what i am talking about) hehes. love ya peeps~

::Those were the days::

2005-06-08T16:57:00.000+08:00

at yesterday's njco qing gong yan (for getting gold and into the presentation, of course) the 3 musketeers (minghui, cailing n jas) came up with the video that brought all of us down memory lane. from very long time ago (the black and white days to the era of our very own teacher in charge) till just this year.. it was there when memories of our days in grey came back.

my own so-called orientation, getting to know the nice seniors who treated us like precious little things, the 1st 3 months in-takers planning orientation 2, our publicity stunt that never got to the audience, crazy practices at night before syf, the weird guy who came screaming at us for blasting our dizi and suona and percussion instruments too loudly when it wasn't even 10.30pm yet, the butterflies-in-the-stomach feeling when we were in the tuning room before going onstage for syf, the ecstacy and voicebox-straining screams at the main lobby, the fairy tale we created from nothingness, the screwed up college day performance (for me), the planning of the sentosa trip with the others in our batch, the trip and amazing race itself, the decision to run for exco, the last minute scrambling to write up a decent speech, havin to overcome any anxiety of speaking up in front of so many people, the hugs and consolation and congratulations when the results came out, the qing gong yan at the linkway which still haunts me till now, being in the concert comm and trying to push unsellable tickets to people, the crazy 29 days of havin to stage a concert and participating in syf finals, and finally.. saying goodbyes to seniors. the closing of a chapter and the beginning of another new one.

august 2003: the transitional period when the 40 of us were left to stand alone, and 10 of us newbies sworn in to office. with so much uncertainties, we set off to embark on a journey of our own. there was tong deng wu qu which we practised until we almost died but turned out well on open day itself, mid-autumn festival at kranji camp which earned us 8 hours of cip as well as hao4 se4 stares from those army boys *grrrhs*, exco tekan-ing camp where we really got to know one another very well, co camp for our batch, the junior-treat-senior at jess' house, chalet as a farewell gift for the seniors at costa sands and our through-the-night gambling session.

2004, we welcomed our own junior batch, it was a record-breaking number of year 1s joining us. though about half of them were inexperienced, they were fast and hardworking learners, a point which i'm still very proud of them even now :) the lunchtime concert at linkway proved quite a huge success, northwest cdc performance at woodlands was really exciting haha, outreach programme where jin lao shi came to give an entertaining talk, juniors' exco elections camp (now it's already the juniors' juniors' election camp time really flies), stayin late in school to discuss elections stuff, genting trip.. and yes, who can forget the genting trip. njco and njgz first major break through in the international scenes. the confirm-cannot-make-it and we-came-here-to-play mentalities right after the semi-finals and finals performance to the we've-won-it-big-time high mode after the prize presentation ceremony (where njgz got gold, njco got gold, best in section, and overall best). the feeling was amazing. another fairy tale created. there was aurora v, our swan song with njco, it was an emotional ride thinking that it would be my last time performing with njco, after so much in these 2 years.. it ended with rousing applause and my chapter with njco was marked with a fine at the end of it :)

2005: a much anticipated year, seeing the juniors through the weeks of intensive syf practices, i felt like a proud parent watching my kids graduate. it was that kind of feeling, tasting the sweet fruits of labour. it cannot be described until you've gone through it with them. and when their hardwork was paid off with an impressive gold and the stage-pass to the syf presentation on 7th july, the seniors went as mad as, if not madder than them :) third fairy tale in 2 years and just yesterday, we celebrated it with the buffet and the memory-lane video.. when you love someone or something, you'd want the best for him/her/it. this is exactly my sentiments :)

::Touched::

2005-06-02T17:29:00.000+08:00

yesterday was my last day as work. the night before, me (with a lot of my mummy's help) baked muffin-lookalike brownies for my colleagus. haha 2 for each and 15 boxes in total. like taste damn nice lohs haha they are a lucky bunch ;) went work with a weird feeling, like 'this will be my last time being here' kinda thing. the day went by, as each of them came into office, me gave them the brownies one by one, and in turn they were there wishing me best of luck in the future. haha and on receiving their brownies, they all had the 'oh so sweet' look on their faces. haha i guess i'm a nice person but a lousy employee eh >.< then towards the end of the day, my supervisor called me into the meeting room where all of them were, told them it was my last day. then the sales guys damn funny, one of them was like 'sob.. should we sing auld lang syne?' and i was like O.O so pai seh. haha then my boss and supervisor said a lot of nice things la (i know they were crossing their fingers behind their back, but who cares?) and when it was my turn to say something, i told them 'you guys have been very helpful and nice, learnt a lot of things from you' haha and my voice wavered lors. so i ended it very quickly. haha but i really count myself lucky la, thought they can get quite demanding sometimes, but they're really nice people individually. haha and they gave me this big present, which turned out to be roche chocolates and a giraffe cushion. haha so sweet, me so gan dong... :) nice memories, too bad i didn't bring the cam to work yesterday.. oh well.. haha never mind la, nice memories are supposed to stay up there anyway ;)

gave them this and they gave me this hehs so sweet :)

::Higher affinity with guys?::

2005-05-31T14:43:00.000+08:00

having worked in this company for 4 months, and having helped my bosses called every other person out there regatding every other little thing, i came to an astounding conclusion: i tend to talk better and more confidently with guys. as in, when i know that the person on the other end of the phone line has an adam apple, i tend not to stammer and very seldom eat my words. on the other hand, when i hear a woman't voice, i tend to stammer and sentences don't come out the way i'd like them to be. weird huh? o.O i don't know why either, though most of my good friends are girls (from my nearly all-girls class in jc, and nearly all-girls cca in rvco and njco) i realised that i don't tend to relate very well with species with the double X chromosomes when i first get to know them. of course there are times when i find guys in general tend to be jerks that i don't talk to them at all, but most of the time i still feel more at ease when talking to guys, especially strangers. with them, i don't have to worry too much about what i say. but for ladies, a slip of tongue and saying something that's not very nice to them sets off a series of tongue-lashing or cold killer-like stares from them. urghs. i don't like that, for your info.

i mean, when you want to bitch about certain things (boyfriends, NS, other bitchy beings, getting old, pms-es, time of the month, chauvinists etc) of course you'd gather your army of girlfriends and huddle together and talk. because guys, being their ego selves, will conjure up all sorts of explanations to save the skins of their counterparts whether they personally know the objects of our bitching directly or not. but on other topics, sometimes you'd find it easier if your audience was a member of the opposite gender. after all, guys generally give a more objective point-of-view and instead of bitching on about a certain problem, they offer practical solutions to help get you out of the sticky position. haha so i guess, it's really an individual expectations kinda thing.

from young, i prefer talking to the XY chromosomal species, coz i can talk ninja turtles (hey, they were my childhood favourites lehs), lego toys (i never had a single barbie doll for these 18 years), liverpool fc and world cup without feeling like an idiot talking to myself. and there was a period of time when i was seriously anti skirts/dresses, the only things in my wardrobe that flows are my rv nurse uniform and that pe navy blue skirt. despite serious attempts in expanding my wardrobe to look more feminine, i still feel more comfortable in shorts, berms and jeans ;) i'll probably wear a decent looking long flowing dress (or gown if you like to put it) when i get married so just you wait and see. haha. =X

back to the point of guys being nice talking partners. if at this point you've been wanting to ask that question, i'll answer you: i'm straight as you can imagine. except for the fact that i kinda fear talking to girls i don't know, i'm very much like any other normal girl. i like guys. haha don't snigger at me k? oh ya, but i'm not totally fearless and steady when it comes to talking with guys. that only accounts for 99% of the time. for that 1%, it happens when i know i'm talking to a drop dead gorgeous yandao. like that time, when this guy called my colleague but i picked up the phone. i knew it was him, and for a moment, i didn't know what to say.. haha but thankfully i managed to tell him to call back later without too much stammering. lolx. so pai seh (o"o)

heh k this entry is just for entertainment, back to work for now. 2nd last day!!